I had a few very strange dreams last night (now the night before, I am finishing this post the next day). In the first there was a spirit so I did a ritual and brought it partly to manifestation. It was a rottweiler named Sieg Heil (apologies to any Germans who may read this or anyone else it may offend!!) . The only other people who could see him were children and babies and then other animals could as well. At first I thought he was great, a beautiful animal and gentle with me but very protective – I especially remember thinking that. Something started to go wrong when he ‘covered’ Haiku. I had to pull him off. He continued to get more and more aggressive but I couldn’t seem to come to grips with it, I still thought he was nice until he finally threw me off a balcony into a pit. I tried to grab a ledge but he pried my fingers off and I fell.
The second dream was that someone close to me came into my house. I had all of these feathers I had collected, owl, hawk, crow, etc.. She walked up to them and grabbed a handful and started to leave. I said, “Are you taking those?” She said she was. I said “No, you aren’t”. She got very angry, said she was going to make a painting with them and needed them and what did I need them for anyway.
Now that I’ve had a day to think about them, both dreams relate to the cards I am working on. The first has the black and white wolves/dogs and the second has the, attempted anyway, theft of a feather, or some symbol of a precious piece of nature.
Where is the 4th, the 7 of Disks? Just a guess here, but I think it is I, the observer, from the point of view of God.
I am looking at the 2 dogs as something I need to control and balance rather than it being me and I am the one being stolen from rather than the thief. I had this thought a while back when I first started seeing the demiurge for the 7 of Disks; the 7 of Pentacles in the Rider Waite, rather than a man looking at his hard toiled for garden, is it God looking at his creation? Well, we are on the 7th day aren’t we? There on the 7th day in the 4th house, pentacles, we have God resting, looking at his work and seeing that it is good. Do you think Pamela did that intentionally? I didn’t do it intentionally but I had her lead to follow, my subconscious may have understood that card easily all along.
I do realize that I have gotten a bit off track from the raven, Memory! They could be one and the same, I suppose but I wonder if it would be better to have 2 ravens on the 7 of Swords since the 7 of Disks appears to be Odin himself. Let me look for that poem about the ravens…
- The whole world wide, every day,
- fly Huginn and Muninn;
- I worry lest Huginn should fall in flight,
- yet more I fear for Muninn.
- What does it mean? I can only guess! Huginn is thought and Muninn is memory. So each day Odin sees and remembers everything that happens in the world. He worries that there will be something he doesn’t see but he REALLY worries he won’t remember something.
So……I have to ask, is the physical world the collected memory of God? And does that memory mistake itself for THE God? That is somewhat the definition of demiurge isn’t it? A creator God but not the transcendent God? And does that make Odin really a transcendent God…..or at least a symbol of one? You could replace Odin with any God and I believe the meaning would be the same.
I am so happy today is painting day!!! I got the board all prepared and my first wash on last night and by tonight I can go to work!!! I can’t wait!